An Open Letter to My 26 Year-Old Self

Dear 26: Where do I even begin? You started out this year in a really crazy place. You were starting to build up your life again after a major tragedy that changed your life forever. Looking back, I still don’t even know how you did it. I don’t know how you pulled through the darkness, and came to the light. It was rough, but you got back on the bike and tried again. Soon, it was March. You met a wonderful man named John. While you weren’t really sure where things were going and how you felt, you took a … Continue reading An Open Letter to My 26 Year-Old Self

You Get What You Need

I’ll be the first to admit that things around here have been really stressful and overwhelming. I know that people might say I’ve come a long way but I also still have a long way to go as well. I’ve been having a rough couple of weeks and I’m all confused and unsure. There was a time recently when I caught myself forgetting the lessons I’ve learned. I’ve been told that I’ve been stuck in survival mode for too long. I took a rest because, frankly, I needed it. During that period of rest, I forgot. I forgot what I … Continue reading You Get What You Need

Dirty Laundry

I’ve always been the one who is concerned about the dirty laundry. I’m not sure why. Most of my friends aren’t really affected by it but for me, it’s a big deal. I’ve been searching around to see if someone out there feels the same way I do, and for the most part, I’ve found that some people pick and choose their laundry… just like everything else. Someone’s past is a big part of their his/her life; it’s what has shaped him/her to the person he/she is now. In short, it matters. It just does. Now, how much weight that … Continue reading Dirty Laundry

Where I Landed

Think of it as the tornado that took me from Kansas and landed me in Oz. I don’t really know where I am. I’m sort of still finding that all out… again. But, like any new place, you have to start out small. You might find one place to eat or go to and you do that for a while until it sort of becomes familiar. You might venture out to a new coffee shop or restaurant. Eventually, you start expanding your radius a little further at a time. You have to start to work outside of your comfort zone. … Continue reading Where I Landed

We’ve All Got Our Junk

The other day, I had to venture down to the basement to look for something. I’m not even sure what. The basement has sort of turned into a carry-all and has pretty much everything you need… or can’t find. Unfortunately, the reason I was down there wasn’t a good one and I was in a state of panic. I was looking for something specific which as we all know is impossible to find when you’re looking for it. Days later when you don’t care, you’ll find it. But then, I was in a sheer panic and I couldn’t find it. … Continue reading We’ve All Got Our Junk

What’s Your Story?

Everyone has a story to tell about something. Either it’s about how you met the one you love, lost the one you loved, traveled around the world, lived without food, or became a survivor of cancer. There’s always a story to be told. That story, that experience, is what made you who you are today. You went through it, learned from it, and carried on. You lived to tell the story. When you are telling your tale, imagines might still be in your mind reminding you of all that happened. The look on someone’s face, the pain or joy that … Continue reading What’s Your Story?

One Second

Sometimes, just before I wake up, I have just one second of peace. For one second, I feel like nothing has changed. That I’m going to wake up in your room, I’m going to see you lying next to me. For one second, I feel like I have my life together and my heart is safe and whole. For one second, I feel pure bliss of knowing that my life is just how I wanted it to be. For one second, I feel loved. For one second, I think everything is okay. I’ll be able to roll over and cuddle … Continue reading One Second

Not Quite Home

I’ve moved a lot in my lifetime. Well, probably not as many others have, but I’ve moved enough. When that first real move occurs, it takes awhile to really adjust and to get used to your new surroundings. Perhaps for days later, you’re still trying to find places to put things. You’re still working out the layout of the living room and how you want the furniture arranged. There’s always the moment when you’re digging through some boxes or bags looking for an article of clothing or for that one pair of shoes. There’s also that sort of mini panic … Continue reading Not Quite Home

Loaded Guns

I challenge you to a dual. Who will pull the trigger first to harm the other? That was what was going through my head. There are certain events and certain actions that lead up to the dual. A sort of ‘loading of the guns’. There were beliefs and views that were conflicting between the two parties. Which is clearly understandable seeing there was a dual in the first place. This is unlike a Catch-22. This is a situation where what you believe and what the other person believes is enough to cause harm to both parties. Both have very valid … Continue reading Loaded Guns

Grace In Small Things

Hello, hello! I hope everyone has had their fill of Thanksgiving food and got all of their Black Friday shopping done! There was a lot to be thankful for this week so let’s get to it! 1 – Family. My family has showed me amazing support and love this week. There’s been a lot of tension and bickering in the family but I know that when it comes down to it, I can turn to them and trust them no matter what. Thank you to my family for being so wonderful and awesome. 2 – Friends. It’s amazing how people … Continue reading Grace In Small Things