I often hear about people who have dropped out of college to pursue other interests. Some have formed a band, starting acting, or even went on to create multi-million dollar businesses. But I’m sure that had to take a hell of a lot of determination. Granted, just because you have a degree doesn’t necessarily mean you will be successful, but it does certainly help. So to say that you’re willing to put that on hold to go after something else is very risky and would require a lot of determination. I’m sure they were met with their setbacks and downfalls, … Continue reading Determination

An Open Letter to the Old 30 Yr. Old Me

Dear 30 Year Old Jessica, It’s been a long time since you’ve been to this website to post. I know that you always think about it and want to return to it, so I figured the new you can jump start it once again. Turning 30 was – for lack of better words – depressing. I felt as if I had nothing together in my life. And while I might have FELT that way, I actually had some of it together. But for the most part, it was not a good year. Did good things happen? Yes. Were there good … Continue reading An Open Letter to the Old 30 Yr. Old Me

Having That ‘Hard Talk’ With Yourself

It’s always hard to come to terms with the fact that you need to change. Yes, I know everyone is all “Love me for who I am,” and that’s fine. But then there are times when you have to look yourself in the mirror and admit that something has to change. Whether that means starting a healthier habit, or working on your patience, or even watching your budget. Change isn’t bad. It might be uncomfortable and scary, but it’s not bad. Want to know why? Because things are likely to change again… and again. Also, working on yourself isn’t a … Continue reading Having That ‘Hard Talk’ With Yourself

An Open Letter to the New 30 Yr. Old Self

Dear New 30 Year Old Self: I have to say…. I’m not happy about you being here. I’m now entering a whole new decade that I’m not too happy to be a part of. Honestly, I never thought I would be this old. I don’t know why, but as a kid, being 30 was like…. impossible. It was something that happened to OTHER people but wouldn’t happen to me. And if – IF – 30 had to happen to me, I would at least like to think that I would be rich and famous by then. But since 29 did … Continue reading An Open Letter to the New 30 Yr. Old Self

Strangers, Allies and Foes

When I took my screen writing class, and as I go through a novel writing class, I realize that I have to create a world for my characters to live in. This world can be any world that I want it to be. Since I’m not a huge fan of science fiction (but I have read it), I usually choose my world to be identical to my world – Earth, I guess you would say. And while writing my world, I have learned that there are mainly three types of people: Strangers, allies, and foes.┬áStrangers exist in the world. They … Continue reading Strangers, Allies and Foes

First, You Decide…

Lately I have been feeling a little…. off. It’s really hard to explain the feeling I’m having. Disappointment? Sadness? I’m not too sure, but I’m going to try. A few years ago, I was in a different place in my life (as I’m sure we all were). But I was a different person too. And believe it or not, I really liked that person. She was disciplined, active, informed, and quite happy with her life. Now, I think back to that girl and wonder what happened to her? I feel like now, I’m so out of touch with everything, lazy, … Continue reading First, You Decide…

My Love Hate Relationships with Horror Movies

I hate horror movies. But at the same rate, I love horror movies. First, I hate them because they scare the crap out of me. I didn’t realize how many fears I had until I started exploring horror films. Ghosts, monsters, crazy people, possessions, water, tight spaces, outer-space, voodoo… the list really goes on and on. Basically, I fear for my life. If there is any way my life is going to be in danger, no matter what shape, form, type it is, I’m terrified. About 90% of the horror movies have HORRIBLE endings. Normally when we get to the … Continue reading My Love Hate Relationships with Horror Movies

The Memories Kill Me

I don’t remember what the conversation was about, but it triggered a memory. And then I began to really think about my life. When we are born, we don’t really start having memories until around the age of 4 or so. From then on, we sort of build our own little scrapbook of memories. Some good and some bad. Eventually, you start to fill up your book. It just dawned on me not too long ago, that I have quite a few memories in my book. And when I stopped and thought about it, I realized that while I was … Continue reading The Memories Kill Me

I Woke Up Late

Have you ever been living your life… just as usual, and then, something happens. You write a check, you fill out a form, or you pass an electric billboard, and you realize what day it is. It was only the other day, that I signed off on a request, and realized it was January 16th. I had no idea what had happened to the first half of the month. I’m sure I lived it; however, I don’t remember a single day of anything that happened. It’s like I just woke up late in the middle of the month! And even … Continue reading I Woke Up Late

What Has Been Going On?

I know, I know, it’s been a while. I have been going through so many crazy things in my life. I have actually been going through so many things emotionally. I have a birthday coming up. And while I have a birthday coming up every year, this year, I have to have my drivers license renewed. I know people stress about it sometimes, because they never come out right, and everyone thinks they look awful. But the thing is, I looked nice. I really did. I think this was the best one yet. And I think back to that time, … Continue reading What Has Been Going On?