The Perfect Friend

Why is everyone else allowed to have an opinion but me? People will start a conversation with me talking about whatever it is they want to, and they will share their opinion on whatever is going on. Now, 9 times out of 10, I disagree with them. As a matter of fact, I wouldn’t go so far as to say I ‘disagree’ with them, perhaps, I just have a different perspective. And it’s not because I’m trying to be difficult or give them a hard time, I just see things differently. I do try to be as diplomatic as possible … Continue reading The Perfect Friend

You Think You Know, But You Have No Idea

There are a lot of people out there who hate me. About 100% of the reasons WHY they hate me are complete bullshit. You want to know how I know this? I know this, because I haven’t done a damn thing to these people. I have never stolen anyone’s boyfriend, I’ve never murdered someone’s pet, I have never hit anyone, I have never  posted nasty things about someone (i.e. I hope you die), etc. I have never done a single one of these things to another human being for about as long as I’ve lived. The reasons why people hate … Continue reading You Think You Know, But You Have No Idea

Most Memorable Valentine’s Day

There is one Valentine’s Day that I will always remember, and hold dear to my heart. It was back in… 2005… HOLY SHIT! This was THAT LONG AGO??!! I was 18! I’ve remembered this for almost a decade now… God, do I feel old. Anyway, back in 2005 (sobs), my girlfriend (Chica) and I, didn’t have Valentine’s dates. But, we didn’t want to just sit at home, and feel bummed about it. So, we decided to go out and have a date of our own. I’m pretty sure we ate somewhere, I’m thinking Eat N’ Park, but I’m not sure. … Continue reading Most Memorable Valentine’s Day

You Don’t Know Me

What I never understood was that when I first met someone, out of the blue, that I’ve never seen or met before and automatically hate me. I’m not talking like well, we just aren’t going to be friends, I’m talking like a pure hatred here. I have no idea why. Maybe they didn’t have their cup of coffee for the day, but it confuses me. In turn, it also puts me on the defensive towards them. And all of this has been decided in the first 10 seconds of meeting each other. Furthermore, there’s no fixing this. This person is … Continue reading You Don’t Know Me

My Inner Circle

There are a group of people who are within my ‘inner circle’. You can call it my ‘circle of trust’, my ‘bubble’, you can call it my Top 10, or whatever you’d like. It’s the people in my life that I hold so dear and close to me. These people had to work their way into the bubble/circle. I am really hard on letting people in. I have to size ’em up pretty good for a few weeks and see how things go before letting them in. I’ve had to do this because too many people in my life have … Continue reading My Inner Circle

Always Something

I don’t know about you but I feel like if it’s not one thing, it’s always another. If it’s not money I’m worried about, it’s my friends, family, job, car, etc. If it’s not my family I’m worried about, it’s money, my job, my boyfriend, my stress. There’s never a time when I’m just doing fine. There’s never a moment when I’m not juggling something. But what I don’t understand is why. Why can’t I have all my bases covered for once? Is it really all that hard? How is it that something always manages to go wrong… or break… … Continue reading Always Something

Realizations We Don’t Want to Make

I’m the type of person who really hopes people can change. I blame this on romantic comedies. My ladies know the type: Incorrigible guy meets quirky girl and throughout the movie, she ‘changes’ him and he becomes all quirky too and they fall in love and then – happily ever after! Safe to say it’s due to the rom-coms. I’ve personally changed in my life. Not exactly by thousands of feet, but I have. I know I’ve grown, I know I’ve matured, I know I see the world differently now than previously. But I also know that I see myself differently too. … Continue reading Realizations We Don’t Want to Make

Finding the Inner Calm

Sometimes, I forget about where I’m at and all that I’ve done. I forget that I’ve come a long way in my life. I forget that my world has forever changed because of the things around me.  I forget that I’ve learned a lot more than I give myself credit for sometimes. I know we often say to ourselves, “I have no idea what I’m doing…” and that might be true in certain cases. But then there are other moments, when you do know what you’re doing. You know  how to handle something because you’ve been there before and you’ve … Continue reading Finding the Inner Calm

You Get What You Need

I’ll be the first to admit that things around here have been really stressful and overwhelming. I know that people might say I’ve come a long way but I also still have a long way to go as well. I’ve been having a rough couple of weeks and I’m all confused and unsure. There was a time recently when I caught myself forgetting the lessons I’ve learned. I’ve been told that I’ve been stuck in survival mode for too long. I took a rest because, frankly, I needed it. During that period of rest, I forgot. I forgot what I … Continue reading You Get What You Need

Something That Pulls You In

I’ve been wondering a lot about those sort of ‘first impressions’. But, it’s more than just that… it’s also a ‘hook’ of some sort. For example, in the first page of a book, you either know you’re going to love it or hate it. Hell, people base a lot on the first SENTENCE of a book. That’s a lot of pressure right there. Newspapers are written so that the first paragraph (or few short sentences) tell you what happened. It’s only in the following paragraphs that you learn the details of the story: “A woman was murdered yesterday in her … Continue reading Something That Pulls You In