What Would You Say?

A woman I work with was talking about her current situation regarding a certain gentleman in her life. She doesn’t know what to do, and she has all these feelings, but things are just not happening. She was talking about it to absolutely everyone, and just felt like things could change. Basically, in a nut shell, this guy was just an asshole to her for a week, and since it’s been a while that she’s had a guy interested in her, she wanted to hold on as long as possible. Everyone wanted to be positive for her. They told her … Continue reading What Would You Say?

Micro-living

There was a time in my life when I was living with my then-boyfriend. We had lived together for almost three years. During that time we were together, our relationship sort of evolved in a very strange way. In the beginning, we were fine. We had fun, and we got along very well. Then, I went to visit a friend of mine – and time slipped away – and I realized I had spent a couple of hours there. So, I came back and wanted to talk about everything with him, and instead, he snapped. He lost all trust in … Continue reading Micro-living

An Open Letter to a Friend

Dear Friend: I don’t even know where to begin. Everything was going fine until it wasn’t. One day becomes two, and then it’s a week, and then a month. But once the distance starts, it only grows further between us. And before we know it, we’ve been so far from each other that I don’t even know how to begin to make the trek back to each other. These first few steps are always the hardest to take. But, while I’m waiting to make those first steps, we’re slowly still drifting further apart. As I swirl my toes in the … Continue reading An Open Letter to a Friend

I’m Engaged!

Hey there! For all of you who have been following, I would first like to thank you for coming back to read my rants. Also, I would like to invite you to share with me a new life event: I’m engaged! I have now gone from that ‘girlfriend’ to ‘fiance’. I am the luckiest girl in the world. John is truly amazing, fantastic, and absolutely wonderful. I couldn’t have asked for a better man. I’m sure you’ve seen pictures of us together throughout the blog, and you can see he’s been with me through a lot of these wild adventures … Continue reading I’m Engaged!

The Trust is Gone

Everyone has lost trust in other people. Except me. I still believe people are good at heart. Someone once told me, “You don’t know who that person is. They might be a murder. Are you going to trust them then?” Powerful words, right? I understand that people might not know what they’re doing. It’s a big world with a lot in it. But there are some instances you might want to follow directions. Picture this; a gentleman goes to the mechanics to have an oil change. The gentleman parks his car and leaves. While moving the vehicle to have the … Continue reading The Trust is Gone

You Don’t Know Me

What I never understood was that when I first met someone, out of the blue, that I’ve never seen or met before and automatically hate me. I’m not talking like well, we just aren’t going to be friends, I’m talking like a pure hatred here. I have no idea why. Maybe they didn’t have their cup of coffee for the day, but it confuses me. In turn, it also puts me on the defensive towards them. And all of this has been decided in the first 10 seconds of meeting each other. Furthermore, there’s no fixing this. This person is … Continue reading You Don’t Know Me

Relapses & Remissions

What I never really understood when it came to mental disorders was that you could go into remission but never be healed. Once that diagnosis is placed on you, you are forever labeled. Even if it’s been years or decades, you’re still only in remission. No one is perfect. No one can start on a diet and NEVER fail at it… not even once. No one can start an exercise program and take an unscheduled ‘day off’. No one can write a book and NOT have a chapter that’s slightly not as good as the rest of them. We can … Continue reading Relapses & Remissions

Walk Away

I’ve been having more and more discussions on how there are people in my life that don’t really see me in the same way I see them. There are a lot of people out there who mean a lot to me. I’m pretty sure they know because… others recognize it. “S/He really means a lot to you… I can tell,” they say. Yes, s/he does. But if you were to go up to that person and try to have a discussion about me… I’m sure you would find, it’s not mutual. “I can tell you love him/her,” they’ll say. And … Continue reading Walk Away

Finding the Inner Calm

Sometimes, I forget about where I’m at and all that I’ve done. I forget that I’ve come a long way in my life. I forget that my world has forever changed because of the things around me.  I forget that I’ve learned a lot more than I give myself credit for sometimes. I know we often say to ourselves, “I have no idea what I’m doing…” and that might be true in certain cases. But then there are other moments, when you do know what you’re doing. You know  how to handle something because you’ve been there before and you’ve … Continue reading Finding the Inner Calm

Dirty Laundry

I’ve always been the one who is concerned about the dirty laundry. I’m not sure why. Most of my friends aren’t really affected by it but for me, it’s a big deal. I’ve been searching around to see if someone out there feels the same way I do, and for the most part, I’ve found that some people pick and choose their laundry… just like everything else. Someone’s past is a big part of their his/her life; it’s what has shaped him/her to the person he/she is now. In short, it matters. It just does. Now, how much weight that … Continue reading Dirty Laundry