Have you ever been living your life… just as usual, and then, something happens. You write a check, you fill out a form, or you pass an electric billboard, and you realize what day it is. It was only the other day, that I signed off on a request, and realized it was January 16th. I had no idea what had happened to the first half of the month. I’m sure I lived it; however, I don’t remember a single day of anything that happened. It’s like I just woke up late in the middle of the month! And even … Continue reading I Woke Up Late
I always hear people say, “Back when I grew up, it used to be different…” Hell, even now I can say it! When I ask, “How? How was it different then?” The person would go on describing how his/her world was, and I sit there trying to picture it the way they do – the way it used to be. Some of the stories sound really wonderful. Local towns would be decorated, and have gatherings, and farmer’s markets, etc. People didn’t really have a means of transportation, so they either: walked, took a bus, or took a train. That was … Continue reading It Used to Be…
…this is what I do. I find little ways to keep myself occupied. Sure, I read and watch movies, but eventually those do get tiresome. It’s at this point that I turn to do more creative ways to pass the day. I don’t really tell John all about this because I don’t want him thinking I’m having too much fun at the apartment without him. I do wish I could spend the day with him, but when I can’t… a girl’s gotta do what a girl’s gotta do. And this is it! So if you’re ever bored… don’t be afraid … Continue reading When No One is Here…
I was on the internet the other day browsing around and I came across an article talking about the ages of celebrities. I’m not going to lie, when I found out how old some of these people were, I was completely shocked! I’ve been listening and watching these people all throughout my life and for whatever reason, I thought they were timeless. I thought that while I was getting older, they just forever remained the same age. I don’t even know why! I mean, I would have that moment every now and then when I would see a picture of … Continue reading When Did I Get Old?
I know that I just recently wrote about being fed up and how there’s only so much a person can take. But I wanted to back it up for a bit and start at the beginning. In order to not care anymore, you had to start caring in the first place. If you didn’t care then, and you don’t care now… you can’t really be ‘fed up’ because you never cared in the first place. So, when did I start caring? When did it all change and become important to me? When I learned more? When I saw others caring? … Continue reading When Did I Start Caring?
I don’t know if you’ve ever noticed this but how come no one is ever ‘at the right age’ to do a lot of things? I’ve heard by parents tell me time and time again that I’m too young to settle down with a guy. “Wait til you’re older,” they always say. But the thing of it is, when exactly this that ‘older’ age? Others who are my age are married… some even have a kid… or more than one kid. I’m told that ‘it’s okay for them, but I’m still too young.’ Again, I’m not real sure what that … Continue reading Too Young, Too Old
I came across this picture once and I saved it because I wanted it to be a reminder to me that sometimes, you just have to be brave. I love to live inside my comfort bubble and just stay in there where it is safe but I know I can’t stay in there forever. When I was younger, I was always so brave. I don’t know why. But, I wasn’t afraid of as much then as I am now. I think there was something to the adrenaline or something. That big rush you got before the plunge. My heart would beat so … Continue reading 20 Seconds
I think that phrase along with, “When the time is right,” should come with a little bit more explanation than that. I’ve recently been wandering around and trying to feel my way through life at this point. Because of the holidays, I think everything just seems more rushed than it should be. Everyone is aware of what day it is. Hell, most have even started a countdown to Christmas and the countdown to the New Year. With all of these ‘countdowns’ happening, I’m not surprised that I’m feeling this underlying need to rush along. But life isn’t about that. Things … Continue reading You Just Know
Sometimes, just before I wake up, I have just one second of peace. For one second, I feel like nothing has changed. That I’m going to wake up in your room, I’m going to see you lying next to me. For one second, I feel like I have my life together and my heart is safe and whole. For one second, I feel pure bliss of knowing that my life is just how I wanted it to be. For one second, I feel loved. For one second, I think everything is okay. I’ll be able to roll over and cuddle … Continue reading One Second
Welcome to another Saturday! It’s going to definitely be a fall day! I have a great line up so let’s get to it! 1 – Thank You Notes. When was the last time you received a Thank You note WITHOUT having to go to a party? Hell, you might not have even gotten one and you DID go to a party. Thank You notes are awesome… even if it’s for nothing in particular. Just telling someone thank you for helping out and being who they are is a great compliment to hear. Tell someone Thank You today and if you … Continue reading Grace In Small Things